July 28, 2017. We lost our girl.
I have since been thinking about my blog and knowing that I needed to get back to it, but LoKi’s loss kind of knocked the wind out of me. Actually… it flattened me. We knew it was coming and we had eight amazing months to party like rock-stars. We hiked, played, swam, ate steak, and of course…. the ball rarely touched the ground. One of the best and worst years of my life. I procrastinated on writing this particular entry for, what was it? 2 months? I didn’t want to relive the pain and I hated surrendering to that fucking T-dragon. I am still grateful to the role cannabis played in maintaining her comfort. In the end, she just stopped eating one day, her lungs filled up with fluid and she could no longer breathe comfortably. That part lasted about 3-4 days. My husband and I could NOT allow her to suffer, so the family (including her sister, Juno) carried her into the vet’s on a Monday morning to ease her pain.
The following months have been kind of a recuperation phase. I smile more because I’m not constantly worried (or in fight mode), but I cry some days because I miss her. Watching Juno live without her best friend has been painful to say the least – a lot of adjustment there…… She did not leave my side for the first couple of weeks. It seemed like she ‘needed’ me, but I’m pretty sure it was the other way around.
I have this huge stack of cannabis information that I am ready to go through – maybe the winter months will get me motivated again. I think my next topic will be MS. Stand by please……….. Heart still mending.
This is my kid about 5 days before she moved on to her next super hero life form. We literally PLAYED until the very end. RIP, baby girl. Forever in our hearts.
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